Wild Child.

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Made for, the group One Direction Stole My Heart.
 
For there Contest, Quotes Of One Direction.
 
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Well, this seems like a really messy set up with all sorts of random things, and the name.. Yeah its about a guy i know. He's my best friend, even though were not as close as we used to be right now.
 
I mess up alot, not always saying the right things with him, even though with anyone else you all know i just say the perfect things, what everyone wants to hear. But the thing is, im not sure what he wants to hear, maybe nothing just scilence. I would bet i let him down alot, with the things i do or say, but sometimes he just suprises me, and im not used to that. He makes me lose his place, and it makes me so mad because all i want to do is make him feel happy in the slightest of ways.
 
Growing up in the life i have, where i just get what ever i want maybe isnt the best friend to be around him. He has is so hard. His parents dont listen or take the time to try to hear him, they ask so much of him and his brother. Honestly he is the complete oppisite of me in every way, hes so quite and we all know im the loudest. He never seems happy though when am i ever sad?
 
Its like he has all the answers to life sometimes, one of the most smartest guys, i think i have ever met. We were walking home once and no matter what i asked he knew, the actually green of the line, he even one day was telling me how to get the sun. And even though i never tell him, it amazes me how he dosent even have to try, and its like everything frezzes when he becomse passionate about a topic even if i have no care for it, i cant help but listen.
 
I think, at some point he lost something that you cant replace. I guess for a while, i just tryed to change things keep his mind off thoughts.. But then i worked out if he needed me he would ask if he was hurt enough he is going to tell someone.So i stopped messeging him and he stopped too and now we have gone from every day endless convosations to once a week words here and there. He has a friend, who kinda of understands him on a level that makes him that bit happy her names stacey i just hope tells her some things, less of a chance he would exsplode.
 
He has a girlfriend shes younger but thats okay, shes really sweet and shes my friend too, and even though i dont agree with alot of her actions i stay out of it, and when i find out others are trying to get involde, well i put them back in there spot. I guess i am always going to look out for him, he doesnt need everyone talking about his girlfriend about stuff he already knows, It isnt going to help, just cause him more misory.
 
Time has flown by, and each day i guess i notice more then i want too. Hes not happy with himself, i think it is partly due to he thinks everything he does is wrong or a mistake. When i found out, i self-harmed i did what most people do, that pointless stuff of complerments and telling him that hes better then that and worth more and he means something to alot of people. Now i know, there just words, they wear off even though every word was true its still words that fill an empty page but not a heart.
 
He is perfect, in his own way and i wish more people would tell him how perfect he really is. How he can make someones day with just a nice comment. He is so talented, hes a fast runner and hes not just book smart, sports and funny hes like everything wrapped into one, he deserves the best.
 
Hes amazing, hes one of the only people who ever make me nervous, hint the butterfiles. I dont do nervous/shy its not cute on me, but i find it hard to evn talk to him in person with out forgetting what i was going to say :3
 
I have learned so much about him, but hes like a never ending book of new chapters and storys, but one of my fav books. I love so many things about him, how he speaks so propper and how spelling is alot to him, if he was reading this he would most likely be screaming at the screen for the horrible spelling though out this. But thats okay, because he is perfect the way he is.
 
He avoids feelings like the plage, he trys not to care but really i think its because he just doesnt want to be hurt, so he trys to shut it all out.. But at night when hes alone in the dark listening to the quite. I think it eats him alive.
 
Not only is he amazing on the inside, but a real Hunk on the outside. He has a pack a pretty firm one, and his arms are a massive weak spot for me, i just love there shape and the lines when the muscel bends in when he moves his arms. He looks ADORABLE when he bites his lip, and i wouldnt tell him ever but he gives pretty dam good hugs too. His hair is kinda culry its cute as and he might love my blue eyes, but i love his eyes there kind of like aurtum. Hes a real hottie, and alot of girls no it, hard not to stare at even more when that V line shows when the wind blows his school shirt up, my best friend thinks thats the best part. But I really like his smile, it screams him every bit.. He might hate it and not get why but im not the only girl to notice it.
 
Hes not the happyest but he can be the funnest, hes not the most easy going but hes really smart he can be completely stubbon and jokinly mean but i like ever bit, I like how once his mind is made its almost impossible to change.He has annoying habbits like me, always has a pen and clicks it alot he can make you laugh in any topic with out even trying.
 
It was my best friends big party this year, and all i could smell was guys wearing lynx thought i was going to die. Prince though didnt help by using all my weakness's againts me for laughs. But i saw a fun side of him, putting glowstick juice everywhere, spending the night with haylea playing spin the bottle for shiz and gigz music everything. He was really fun and well hot but more like happy.. It was a good night, i saw something i never thought i would.
 
Hes not rich, hes got no super powers or dating a celb but he is a teenager, like all of us. Some of us are lost some are scared others are trying not to waste life, some hurt and others doing the hurting. Just trying to find a place, to find us. Life isnt easy, there is no rule book or directions. Some people get off before they really lived it and every day im scared he will be one of them, and i wont ever get to tell him as much as i would love to about him, i never would be able to say it all doubt we coould live that long. But i try every day and im always there, because hes a best friend that makes me happy, so im not giving up until i do the same, I want to see that smile more.
 
We were really close. one night we stayed up until 5am on skype and ended up falling asleep even though it took me forever to convince him too go to sleep himself. Its hard stepping back and waiting, i would be lost with out him he made me see things so differently i had the easy life got it all, first state school when i came to his i was always daddys little angle but now im with my mum, new school new people said i wouldnt get attached wouldnt make friends, now look at me i never shut up about them. Lifes crazy and it has its moments but i think we just have to hold onto what we love before we lose it all and then question every breath, and i dont think he is there yet because the way he talks about her makes me think that he loves something and is going to keep on breathing. So hes a prince, hes perfect inside and out completely tanlented in love with the un-exspected but has problems too, but thats life. And im thankful he has been in mine.
 
I could keep going, but we all know i cant spell so see you all soon, with a new set!
 
Thanks. For.The.Memories Hunk, Love BT :')

Your always on my mind, i think about you all the time.. But i dont like to talk about it.. Drama how its made life so croweded.
 
I loved everything you did, the way you did things the way you listend to me screamd and ran You were the only friend i would have done absoulotly anything for.. Your an amazing guy.. i have known you since the day i was born. I don't know how i am going to live with out you, you were the only one who knew my tells and when i said its nothing you would always know that something was wrong.
 
You fixed everything, like you could tell what was going to happen, i love the things you would say to me how you would get me, but always corrected me. I dont speak guy, and i dont understand how a bike is breath taking. But i always tried to get you. I told you everything secrets and all.. but i guess the other day they died with you, just like you said... Your gonna take them to your grave..
 
Our parents used to say, we were better together. Sometimes i fall over and sometimes im wrong but your words seem to fix my life, and with out you i was always in trouble. We used to talk about how its us you and me forever and ever. Well i guess even forever has an end. You said i was strong, i could make it though what ever i think we both knew you always dragged me though.
 
You dont even try and yet you make everything so much better. I miss you, that day mum told me, i acted fine unil i got to my room, i sat behind it and locked my door and as a slid down its back i began to cry. I was to scared to face the world with out you.. i know you would say something like its going to be okay but you have to take a chance.
 
I cryed and took time away, i wouldnt look at anymore and i barly ever left my room. I felt so alone and i just didnt understand. You were the best person i knew, and the last one i had that knew me for who i was. When i heard the words i felt like someone just took my heart, i loved you yeah sure but like i love myself.. it was something i dont think i will ever be able to live with out.
 
Mum told me a quote, "If your brave enough to say goodbye, then life will reward you will a new hello" I don't think i am brave enough i dont want to accept your not going to come into my room in the middle of the night or wake me up at horrible hours of the morning or cuddle me when i am down.. i dont want to accept not seeing you again, that your never atcually going to be able to talk to me or just be there with me, i dont want to say good bye because i cant accept that your gone, and i am all alone again. I dont think anyone will ever be ANYTHING like you or mean anything NEAR what you meant to me, so this new hello i wont mind if they leave me.. cause i already lost the only dam thing in this world that gave me hope.
 
I miss you and i love you and i am so confussed and i am angry.. I knew you were not happy, but i still didnt want you too leave. I am sorry you got so sick, but i am glade i spent them every days with you.
 
I will always love you Matty, forever just you and me <3 xo

You make me go all crazy, i never know what i really feel or think, and never seem to get the words out right... </3
 
Dam i Love you Jye your my world <3 <3
 
You leave me speachless and in a daze and on them other days when i want to kill you.. or you have to do is call me your girl and im back to thinking your my whole world <3 <3 <3
Talk about my weakspot!
 
LOVE YOU! xoxoxo

I think you all know what i mean, things start off as amazing and then everyone else hears it falls in love with it and then its just annoying because well it was over played, now when you hear it you just skip it but for some reason never delete it.
 
After 5 years you hear it again and it reminds you of things you thought you forgot about <3
 
Love me xo

Todays lifestyle and the people in it, seem to be more depressed then ever. Teenagers self-harm, suicide, starve them selves alongside many other things. Due to what we picture in our head of how things should be.
 
Children used to play outside in the sunlight, blow bubbles, lay on the grass and look at the clear blue open sky, bike ride till it rained, danced in thunder storms, slpashed in puddles, sat under trees and read all types of books.
 
Now days were all inside, on todays technolgy at all hours. Either saying crul things or being hurt ourselves.A few hours is okay, but i would much rather enjoy the outside.
 
People used to dream, and make stories like peter pan just on the spot they could make a whole dream world. Now our dreams are to be sexy and wanted by everyone with a large amount of useless money.
 
Dreaming, aloud you to smile! Now no one dreams.. so everyone is starting to forget what there smile even looked like...... </3
 
Keep dreaming, so you can keep living.

Today the 10/7/2012 at 1:05 my baby boy died. He was still just a young baby rabbit nearly one year old. He was a black minni lop dwaf. He meant the world to me, close as can be.
 
The first time i met him before he could walk he stopmed his foot on the ground as he stood up, i wanted him and i knew he was gonna be called thumper.
 
He had a brother that my sister brought called Honey. We intoduced a female named Pink, sadly she died due to the death of one of our dogs. But she and him, were in love and had many children and ran at each other at first sight. I know it sounds silly but i think after her death he was sad too, he wouldnt mate with our new bunnie Chesse. He only attacked her, so Honey mated with her.
 
I fed him, took him for walked played with him gave him water took him out bathed him talked to him played games. But lately i got really busy and stopped seeing him and my sister started feeding him.
 
When he died i blamed myself it was all my fault. No one knows how he died he just fall asleep and didnt wake back up. I think it was because he was lonley...
 
We have baby rabbits, and im watching his Little boy grow up he looks just like he did when he was a baby, and his baby girl lives with my cousins i dont know where the rest are but they all had a good as dad.
 
My sister we couldnt bare to tell her that her rabbit died on her birthday so we brought a new one that looked simular, she couldnt tell the diffrence. He was the last one of the original 3 rabbits we got.
 
I love him, hes always going to be my baby boy. <3
 
LOVE FOREVER AND ALWAYS ME ! xoxo